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I Can’t Get No Sa-tis-fac-tion

A human being does not live by bread only, but by everything that issues from the mouth of God does a human being live (Deut.8:3).

There is an emptiness inside of me, a cavern, it will not be filled with bread, with stuff, there is not enough substances to fill that space, this space is vacant for want of depth, spirit, this space is not hungry for bread this space is hungry for meaning, for significance. The real deal.

A human being doesn’t live for bread only; a human being lives for Everything. Only Everything is everything (Marvin Gaye). That’s the danger with this kind of hunger, we think we can stuff ourselves with some thing.

Drugs won’t do it, booze won’t do it, sex won’t do it, money won’t do it, food won’t do it, only HaKol, Everything. Not the Dow, only the Tao.

I got a monkey in my soul. The I is a thief, said the Kotzker, it snatches the partial and mistakes it for the whole. Only Everything is everything. What we have here is a model for addiction and its root in spiritual, intensely inner matters.

To the suffering addict, booze is everything, drugs are everything, she is everything, he is everything, sex is everything, food is everything, work is everything, success is everything.

Into that emptiness we stuff the partial, we drink into that emptiness, we drug into that emptiness, we work into that emptiness, we love into that emptiness, we eat into that emptiness. Never enough. Only Everything is everything. Not by bread alone do human beings live, but by everything that issues from the mouth of God do human beings live.

You can’t eat enough, you can’t drink enough, you can’t love enough to satisfy a hunger that isn’t physical. My soul thirsts for God, the living God (Psalm 42:3). That’s the only remedy, the enduring remedy, the perennial wisdom: the One.

What I mean is: You can get some sa-tis-fac-tion.

“You will eat but you will be satisfied only when you bless . . .” (Deut. 8:10).