And he lived, pt. 2

And he lived

Something else from Rashi
the portion is closed —
Jacob has something he wants to reveal to his children —

the end
but it was closed off to him [see midrash B.Rabbah 96:1]
[the end is a revelation
it’s the end of all Exile
the end of time]
he wanted to reveal to his children
but they are closed off to him.

There are some elusives, unfinishables
at the end of life.
Jacob wants to give them over to his children
but he cannot.

What he does give over is blessings —
poetry, visions spoken in metaphor
but the ultimate redemption —
the end of time
reminds closed off to him.

Jacob needs the assurance
he will be buried with his ancestors
Israel – not the place where his wife is buried
who he describes this way:
she died on me in the land of Canaan on the road [48:7]
died on me?
Something unfinished here too.

Closed off and elusive
visions dreams and songs
at the end of Jacob’s life
the end of Genesis
no ends at all, no beginnings
the illusion of all endings all beginnings
all arrivals all starts
there is only journey and movement and the inevitable rise and fall
[no starts and stops at all]
it doesn’t begin and it doesn’t end
the great river that flows out of itself
into itself.

the death of Jacob
the death of Joseph
the end of Genesis
the narratives of the Mothers and Fathers
the beginning of Exile
closed –

a seam
no sides even
Jacob pulls up his legs and dies

what then –

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