Interlude or Why I Hate Death

I Hate Death

I hate death
you spend 30 – 35 years
40 years maybe 50 years
coming to know someone
you become heart to heart
soul to soul with someone
it takes 25 years for that —

When you know someone 25 years
you begin to melt into each other
you become like them
they become like you
we often call this love —
it’s melting;
I melt into you
you melt into me.

When you know someone for thirty years
it’s soul to soul.
When you know someone for 30 years
it’s more than melting
your souls begin to converge
we call this
convergence:
We become one
something different from each of us
we become one somebody else —
this happens at thirty years.

That’s why I hate death;
After melting into each other
convergence
becoming one with each other —
I hate death because after that
someone dies
then you have to wait
thresholding we call it;
we wait on the threshold for each other.

I hate death because someone dies
then we wait on the threshold
until we are together again.

This is called God;
we all wait on the threshold
for our beloveds
they wait for us;

That’s why I hate death
it’s the waiting
until we join each other;
this is God.

This is what we mean when we say
we are waiting for God;
God is waiting for us;
it’s code for —
we are God waiting for each other.

We wait:
this is the source of all
our God hunger.

Heart to heart
melting
soul to soul
convergence
becoming one
25 years
30 years
40, 50 years
death
waiting at the threshold —

God.

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