From Tisha B’Av to Days of Awe
From the narrows
I call G*d
Who answers me with
Expansiveness – Ps. 118:5
We were learning during the three weeks, between the 17th of Tammuz and the 9th of Av, leaning into the deep sadness of that period. Felt through the arc this time drawing us out of the depth and into the arc of the days of Awe, not after the descent but during the descent, felt the draw of the ascending arc this year.
From the depths I call out to You
De profundis [see Oscar Wilde and Lorca]
Me’ma’amikim karaticha Hashem
Out of the depths I cry to you, O G*d
hear my voice
Let your ears be attentive
to my voice in prayer
The 9th of Av we drop deep into Exile, the secret of Exile the secret of contraction and expansion, to constrict in order to release, to withhold in order to expand, between the narrows (Lamentations 1:3) we are.
We are the shofar, Blessed are we who know the shofar sound, because, O G*d, they shall walk in the light of your face (Psalm 89:15).
On that day,” says Isaiah, “the great shofar will be sounded. And they will come, those lost in the land of Assyria and those forsaken in the land of Egypt, and bow before G*d on the Holy mountain, Jerusalem.” — Isaiah 27:13
We make the sound of our freedom the same way. We purse our lips and contract our breath.
Between the narrows
The straits —
The 17th of Tammuz
And the 9th of Av
Opening onto –
And from the squeeze –
You open to me
Contract and expand
Constrict and open
From Exile to
From the ruins of the 9th of Av is contained the promise of redemption, this the secret of Exile, for every descent a hidden ascent.
There is a hilltop in Jerusalem where heaven and earth touch.
After the destruction the bride began to weep, the ground wept too.
The bride returned as a bird perched at the wall.
For three summer weeks, I sat low in sadness. I planned to bleed,
to wash myself clean.
This I have been taught: After a river of tears, expect the messiah.